Sunday, 2 March 2014

Boys vs Men.

Boys vs Men. 

It's true what they say about relationships, the older you get the wiser you are. You can distinguish the difference between boys and men. You understand the difference and you have your preferences.

A lot of people I know have a type and their pretty picky, with none or minimal compromises. You see I understand this but I also don't. I get that there's a certain type of guy that people are attracted to, but how can you rule the rest out? After all, "opposites attract".

Now when I'm asked what my type is, I instantly describe my perfect man. Tall, dark and handsome with piercings and tattoos, who has a great sense of humour, can hold a conversation, stays loyal and can treat a girl right. But let's face it, that's an illusion and just someone I want.  There may be someone that fits that description perfectly but what's the chance I'm going to meet him. A very very minor chance.

What exactly defines a man you may ask. Well in my opinion it's pretty simple.
1. They don't play games in relationships
2. Their stable
3. They have respect for people
4. There not immature (well, most of the time)
5. They know what they want
6. They've grown up

No age defines a man, and no age defines a boy. The male species can still act like boys at forty, and can act like men at twenty, it's just how they decide to act.

Saturday, 22 February 2014

My little brother

Every time I come home from University it's only really to do one thing. To see one person. I know that sounds bad, obviously I miss my mum and dad, my dogs, my nan and granddad (both), my auntie and uncles and cousins and my friends, but it's to see my brother.

He's my world, my everything, the one person that I can talk to about anything and I know he'll keep it a secret. You wouldn't expect it from a ten year old, but he is more like my big brother than my little one.

He can make me smile even when I'm in the worst mood and don't want too. He can make me laugh when I'm unhappy or down and when he smiles at me, I melt. He honestly means so much to me and I miss him so much at Uni. I'd take him with me if I could, and he'd probably happily come. Even though there's a big age gap of nine years, we are so close. It's unbelievable really!

We are brother and sister, but we're like best friends too. He is my best friend, my little brother, my everything really and I love him so much.

Wednesday, 19 February 2014

My Best and Worst Moments of 2013

I have been preparing this list for a few months now, and in fact I have only recently narrowed it down to the top ten, as I have many more. From sports to music to film, there have been many highlights of the year for myself and maybe all you bloggers out there.

It's the beginning of 2014, and I am late in posting this but oh well, here it goes:

Miley Cyrus twerks off the nation at the VMA'S

What in the right mind was she thinking!? The Disney Channel sweetheart has turned into a self-obsessed stripping popstar. Although, we can all say what we want about her, she sure as hell knows how to work the crowd. 
Her attention-getting methods aren't exactly the best but they don't vary wildly from that many 21 year old girls. But Cyrus took that to the extreme level, and rigid hands were wrung. The nation exploded with outrage, slating the 21 year old. That was the day "twerking" was created. 

Fergie Retires

This was by far the most shocking news of 2013. The greatest manager of all time was retiring, Manchester United would never be the same again. It came a shock to many United fans, that their beloved manager was retiring after an outstanding amount of years with the club. 
I can honestly say, as a United supporter that the club won't be the same, without this legendary manager. He is sadly missed and will always be the best and greatest manager of all time. 

JLS announce their split

This was the heartbreaking moment of 2013 for me. As a JLS fan from the very beginning, my heart went out to these 4 boys when they announced their split. I was in tears when I found out, sad I know. Along with many other fans, I was tweeting them to try and change their mind but nothing was going to do that. I was just happy I got to see their last tour and I'm pretty sure they'll have a reunion later on in a few years time. We still have Marvin on the voice, Aston's going solo, Ortise's managing and we can always visit JB's farm I suppose. R.I.P JLS!

Bieber retires from music

This was the happiest moment the year gave me. Bieber had quit, thank the lord. As many "Beliebers" were drowning in tears, I was celebrating with joy. He's not only lost control of his life, but he has made his fans lose control of theirs too. This announcement was all over the news, internet and papers, it was made such a big deal of. Well all I can say is that, atleast this boy saw sense and quit, whilst ahead because I'm pretty sure that he would have got into a lot of trouble and made many mistakes if he'd had carried on in the music business doing what he is doing now. Well done Bieber, for making all our dreams come true and quitting. I praise you.

Society is fucked.

Why is society messed up!?
I'll tell you why!

You see thirteen and fourteen year olds walking round dressed like sluts. You see sixty year olds dressing the same. 
You see people scrounging off benefits when their perfectly capable of going out and getting a job, there just too god damn lazy to try.
You see the government charging students an extortionate amount to get an education after pressuring them for so long to do something with their lives.
You see parents not caring about what their kids are doing, where they are or what ungodly trouble they are getting themselves into. 
You see major violence and crime happening, but still nothing is being done to protect society or the community.
You see people here that shouldn't be, yet our government won't put their foot down and tell them the rules. 

This is why our society is fucked up, and until people realise what it is actually doing to the generation of today and our system nothing will get solved. Grow some balls and do something about this because if not, we're screwed. And I mean screwed.

Rant over.

Thursday, 6 February 2014

not you, me.

Left in the gutter, me
not you.
Lost and confused, me
not you.
Nowhere to go, me,
not you.
Wondering why this is happening,
to me,
not you.
Ripped apart, me,
not you.
By the excuses and,
disappointment, me,
not you.

Promises made, by you,
not me.
hearts broken, mine,
not yours.
apologies spoken, by you,
not me.
tears have fallen, mine,
not yours.


Chances, after chances,
after chances, are given.

Apologies, after apologies,
after apologises, it's forgotten.

Heartbreak, after heartbreak,
after heartbreak, me,
not you.

Broken inside.
Torn in two pieces.
Heart ripped to shreds.

not you.

There are all types of love in this world but never the same love twice - F. Scott Fitzgerald
Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don't learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying "yes" begins things. Saying "yes" is how things grow. Saying "yes" leads to knowledge. "Yes" is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say "yes" - Stephen Colbert
Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a millions little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won't know for twenty years. And you'll never ever trace it to it's source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure it out on your own. And they there is no fate but there is: it's what you create. Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but doesn't really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope for something good to come along. Something to make you feel connected, to make you feel whole, to make you feel loved.
"Two or three things I know for sure, and one of them is the way you can both love and hate something you are not sure you understand." - Dorothy Allison
I think one of the saddest things is when two people really get to know each other: their secrets, their fears, their favourite things, what they love, what they hate, literally everything, and then they go back to being strangers. It's like when you have to walk past them and pretend like you never knew them, never even talked to them before, when really, you know everything about them.

This is me.

This is me. 
  1. I'm nineteen
  2. I'm a student
  3. Originally from Chesterfield, live in Leicester
  4. Typical student: eat, sleep, work, party 
  5. Family orientated and career driven